Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Another day of extreme weather. I bit my lips today while eating something. Quite a big one, but luckily not deep. Oh wells. Maybe I should not be greedy after all. Or simply. You know

When things are too similar and awfully alike, do you proceed as per last time? Or experiment with a brand new approach? What will you do? What will one do? Hmm.

*added @ 0115h*
I took a shower, just. When pre heated cold water hit me, it dawned on me that it was a cold day. And I guess my heart was too. Probably more so in the past few weeks.
A day of many emotions. The coolness in the day, the hot day in the noon, cap it off with the heavy downpour and grey skies in the evening. Oh wells. It pretty sums up my day.

Dinner was great, considering I was hungry. The usual suspect got me through the night, completing it finally. Of mermaid and comfy sofa, but I can't say for the process though. Haha. Much appreciated really. I felt bad. Ice cream soon.

Anyway anonymous is not so anonymous after all. Haha.

Monday, September 29, 2008

More often than not, it usually is. The right thing happening at the wrong time. Yesterday was one. Simply cannot be at 2 different places at the same time, can I? That was probably part 1. Part 2 on its way soon. Sigh.

Probably I need a life lesson on more of the right thing at the wrong timing. Nothing much to say tonight.

And to the anonymous user that commented on my previous post, I may not know who you are, but thank you for noticing this mundane and otherwise nonsense blog.

On the other hand, I am not sure if I should step up the filtering of the content that I post? After all, I don't know who will even pass by here anymore. Oh wells, we shall see. :)

*Everyone seems to feel connected, or not so alone...*

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Writing daily do take away some things from me.

Like today, I was in the jam around town area where the Formula 1 action is taking place soon. Horrendous traffic. Being stuck as one of them, naturally we don't feel too good. Especially so when I have to pass some stuffs to someone who is waiting for me. All I can say is Singaporean drivers are one of the, if not the worst lot of drivers around. Me included too nonetheless.

The meal came in at coming to 2000. Did not really feel the need, until it came all crashing onto me. I know, unhealthy. That's why probably I am slowly but surely dying.

Everything seems like a blur to me nowadays. And sometimes, I can't really remember stuffs that happened to me. Also I don't seem to be registering them inside also. Probably I am just flowing through with the world? But some issues never failed grab my attention I suppose? Good and bad both. A friend of mine told me yesterday that he is concerned about global issues more than that of himself. The environment, now poverty.

Okay I don't actually have an outline to write tonight, I am just putting down random stuffs that is coming across me now. Wait, which night do I have? Anyway. It is actually not very difficult to be nice to people. We just have to try. A friend of mine said that, "Maybe I'm actually a nice person. I'm only nice because I want people to be nice to me back." I guess it was a very realistic statement? Afterall, I feel that at some point in time, we are all probably guilty as charged. Perhaps that is required from everyone of us in order to induce a higher level interaction? Like. *shrug* Oh wells, nevermind, I don't know. :)

It is usually a losing battle to fight something whose power source that fuel it, are the everyday things that are happening around us now? Oh wells. We are not born to win every single encounter. We all have our Waterloo/s waiting for us.

Of cheesecakes, ice cream, sinful food, and maybe, a little bit of warmth. I can do with some of them right now.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Is it wrong to want something in life? Personally, I think, feel, no. I promised not to do this remember? So I won't.

I read this off somewhere:

"I guess we all have expectations for ourselves, and not being able to meet some of them, will in the end makes us feel disappointed? But sometimes, we can expect too much even from ourselves, because what is ideal might not necessary be the best for us, so probably we just have to make do with some flaws. And, I guess those flaws are what made us unique... "

To end the night

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Shopping again tonight. Bought a book. A childhood book. A little kiddy, childish, I don't care. Haha.

Strolled around a little more for some other stuffs before heading off. A little sometime sweet and nice and tasty has always been a perfect way to end the long day. I like. Next time, I will get the tub. It is so ever tempting.

Perhaps to continue a little bit from previously, having said what was being posted, to a large extent, money can buy almost any tangible items that will aid in making you happy for the short period of time. Maybe because I have yet to really feel happy, despite all my purchases? I still feel for something missing in my otherwise mundane life. Maybe, just for someone or something to share. Like all things, it will eventually be ours, when the timing is right? So do we really wait for it? Or in the meantime, do anything that will seem to hasten the arrival? Or along the way, be blinded by anything that caught our eye, giving the impression that it has finally come to us, and thus risk missing out on the real thing? Like how the polar bear is holding that Coca Cola bottle in its paw? Ok lame. But it is good marketing / advertising by the way. Viewers remember the product and scene. Oh wells.

In the long run, we still need some things, intangible, to make our life more meaningful, and perhaps a little bit sustained, happy. It may sound very cliché, but when the time comes that we really found what we wanted, money will be overlooked, at least for the while that our mind is not on this physical plane. Haha. Oh wells. I think I need ice cream at this point.

Anyway, this is weird. I feel like I am actually doing a reply post of sorts. Not an argument entirely, but perhaps just simply, for the sake of it, giving a counter point to some issues that I have read. I am quite prone to this 'for the sake of it' thingy. Bad. I know. Must stop. Makes me look very *insert your own word here*. But if for the fun of it, then :P

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Meatballs and potato for dinner tonight. I like. Walk the walk, see the see, talk the talk, bought the things, all in good company of some nonsensical humour. It is a land of temptations. A place where some of your dreams come true. But then again, all made only possible with the very presence of money. Sigh.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Before I forget anything.

Looking back last night, I felt bad about the entire episode. It was too much to expect everyone to view the same scenario on the same footing. Like I have said, we could have had misunderstandings even without us realising it. Sometimes perhaps we just have to get used to it.

I am glad third party talked to him about it just now. I am not sure if it was entirely, but at least he sees it now? When he apologised to me, wah, I really felt damn blardy bad about it. Crap. He was probably really oblivious to it, since no one has really told him about it? Till maybe last night. I guess I was wrong for being kinda harsh last night. We will see how things go from here I suppose? What do you think third party?

Anyway, there is another one waiting for me. Will monitor him before further actions. In the meantime, he better thread carefully. The threat and aggro has not yet gotten reset. :)


On a separate note, have you ever had the feeling of losing something, yet that thing was something that you never actually had?

Monday, September 22, 2008

"... the conflict is gigantic... the tension was tangible... plate wearer deserved the plate wearer's respect... " just some abstract.

Subtle or not. Only you know. And sometimes what we meant for each other, we never quite understand each other. So I guess it is better to let a third party resolve it?

After all, the line is fine, sometimes almost unnoticed. I was that close to getting personal. Actually looking back, I think I did cross the line just now. But I am glad I held things back. At least then there was space for me to get off the stage.

Oh wells. Looking forward to dinner later. Yes I damn right am. ^^

Saturday, September 20, 2008

There is a fine line for everything? Good and bad. Beautiful and ugly. There is always two side to a problem. Your argument will start from which ever perspective that you take. So technically there is no wrong? Just how convincing and strong your arguments are?

Ok the main issue of this post was not actually this. Got distracted. Anyway I just want to say, sometimes we can be so blinded to the things that are happening right in front of our eyes, that it clouds our vision. Literally or not. Anyway, the bottom line is that being stupid is not mistake. The real mistake lies in choosing to and acting like one?

Oh well. There is no cure for such. Much as I would love to help them, I can't. I feel sorry for them.

Friday, September 19, 2008

How do you take a photo of a camera phone without using another camera phone or a camera? OK there is the web cam. But save it. Anyway its a C902, black, if anyone bothered.

Surprise went well, a surprise after all.

I feel jaded. What I cannot pin point. Probably a little of everything that is around me.

Sometimes I just want to run away. Never to come back until I have found myself.


Anyway on a side note, I miss the emoticons on my msn on my pc. But then again everything seemed so simple and neat without all the emoticons. Contradiction. As usual.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Right, I have decided on the phone to get. Looking forward to waking up to pleasant music again.
Also looking forward to instant noodles from Taiwan.
Not looking forward to the green patch of grass. Healthy, but I think it sucks. :) Poor. Poor.

Anyway looking back @ the crash. I am quite thankful for not hurting myself. It could have been much worst. But I walked off without a scratch. I guess the phone was the payment for that. In non-monetary sense, it is worth it. K, I'm not sure if the last statement made any sense. Probably it does.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Sleepless nights continued. *shrugs*
Sometimes I guess it is more about letting yourself out? Rather than letting people in?

It's going to be 3 days without my daily waking up music. Kinda missed it.
It is this, in case if anyone's bothered enough to be wondering. :)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

It was the Mid Autumn Festival last night. Cloudy night. Could not see the full glory of the moon. Nonetheless I saw kids with their parents at my void decks. Traditional laterns. I like. Felt emotions stirred then. Oh wells.

I guess some feelings are beyond words. I know. Like that little girl and her dad I saw during dinner

Gotten my new SIM card today. It's time to look for a new phone.

Oh something random, I had MacDonald's for dinner today.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Shit night?

The bike took a corner too fast, went into the gravel and into the drain. Soft crash. Rear puncture. *Shrug*

Took a cab home, left my phone in the cab? Oh wells.

Does these qualify as a shit night? Perhaps I should have stayed in bed. But I guess some things are meant to happen the way they are.

If the phone does not come back, then it is a brand new start.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Of quiet and cold Coffee Bean; completing The World Without Us; people ended up @ the entirely wrong place; laughing @ them; meet up for dinner; crowded Swensen's; Parmesan cheese-less Caesar Salad; people who are not what they seem; scar-less previously emo wreck; less emo ppl now; sold out Strawberry Cheesecake flavour; almost exploded on ice cream mooncakes.

Overall, still a fruitful night. Spontaneous night. I like.

Friday, September 12, 2008

If I were to tell you, will you believe me?
If I were to even convince myself, would it turn out so?

Some random blah blah blah..
Anyway, I was pleasantly surprised at the discovery of another emo wreck. Wahaha.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

An American Tale







The days of innocence

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Well let's see. Comex, gotten a ext hard disk, headphone for the pc. Packed as usual even on a Friday. Wait, what am I talking about, it is supposed to be packed. Saturday I went out reading. Just to relax a little. Come Sunday, Nike Human Race. 11000 people seemed so much compared to the half marathon last week. Perhaps because of the only partial road closure. Timing was decent for not training. Late dinner after the run. Baked rice and french toast.

Come Monday, met up with some people, steamboat @ Bugis, great company to relax with. Followed by some sweets just opposite the street. It was also the closest I came to being stranded. Thank you the kind hearted security guards.

Nothing spectacular in the week leading to this end I guess.

And I suppose I am lagging in some movies that I want to watch. Oh wells.