It has been raining a lot these days. Wet and lazy days. I heart not.

Book shopping. Snacks shopping @ Marks & Spencer. New love. Happy food hopefully can lift my spirits a little.

Today I saw the train left the station. My heart felt exactly like it.

No idea how to simplify the feeling. You go decipher it yourself.

In no particular order, it has been raining the past few days. I never like rainy days. They always feel so blue. Rainy days are best spent listening to ballads by X Japan.

On a side note, I finished another couple of books over the past week. Seems to me it is about time to restock the supplies ^__^ at least then I won't be tempted to spend on nonsense things. Ok sound like a lame excuse just to shop for books. Haha.

And it is pretty amazing how fast time usually goes by us. The year is ending alr.

I can't really seem to remember what I have done these few days. Can't really get to sleep either. Weird.

I tried to clear my head going running last night. Not too sure if it helps. Modem has been cranky on me these few days. The same old problem. I guess the modem is letting me know it is calling it a day. I guess different things have their own unique way of letting us, don't you agree?

So today it was the last straw. I made my way to the Starhub shop @ Vivo and exchanged for a new modem with the points that I saved from the re-contract. Completed A Spot of Bother over a cup of hot chocolate at a nice cold corner will waiting for my dinner kakis. Sushi Tei was great, as usual.

I went to bed early tonight. But I don't seem to be able to drift off to bed. So I got out of bed and watch an episode of the new series, Calafare, shown on Ch 5, on Mobtv.

Sometimes, the time / day / moment that we have always waited may not always come for us. I mean, some people spent their entire life waiting, yet it was not meant to be. Some of us are afraid that the moment we walked away, it will just pass us right by. Others simply feel that it is time for something new. The remaining are simply clueless. I guess knowing what we really want will be a good first step. At least it gives you a direction to begin with.

Perhaps. Sometimes. When I think I know. I don't. I guess there are sacrifices to be made for being rational.

A little alcohol might just do the trick in getting me to bed.

2 weeks. Things happened. Good and bad. Overall, bearable.

Cake from neighbour was absolutely sinful. Nice. Thank you! :) A little bit of shopping for myself. Take it as rewarding myself, though there isn't any reason to do so.

The camp this year was rather different from last year? The drowning incident obviously did not help. First time helping out backstage. I now appreciate all the unsung heroes. Often when things went well front line, they were taken for granted. But when things went wrong, they face the baptism of fire. How nice indeed. Okay that is not the point. It was pretty interesting seeing how a group of people with all their different ideas came together and conducted the camp. But when you hear things like "there are tensions among them", no matter how good things look on the surface, it is never okay. Oh wells.

The short trip was relaxing though. Not much shopping done. But plenty of 7 Eleven food; cheap food; nice expresso coffee; cooling fruit smoothies; friendly people; hot weather; colourful taxis; taxi drivers; speeding taxis. You get the point. On the other hand, what touched me was how a city can be developed yet backward at the same time. My experience in LA and SF was that there was a clear divide between the zones. But not in Bkk. The line is blurred. And there was something about the people there too. They were almost innocently captivating. Nothing too complicated. Why can't we live our lives like these sometimes too?