Thursday, August 30, 2007

A lil'..

The diving theory lesson was absolutely boring~!

And why is IT lying inside the SR?? Tsk.. Disgusting......

Other than that.....



Oh blood donation drive next week~! Good. Save me the trouble.



And I feel I am getting shorter by the day.. Tell me it is not me.



For those that still pop by once in a while, sorry for the lack of content here.
Spending a lil' more time on my LiveJournal now. :)

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Raining.

The torrential rain. Those pasar malam vendors. Poor thing.




The rain makes it so wonderful to pig out in bed...

Monday, August 27, 2007

AHM

Half marathon was today. Run was great for someone like me who didn't train at all. I felt better than I did when I was in active service. Weird. Haha.

Logistic wise was screwed up. Considering that I took half the time I ran to collect my bag. Trust me, it was a torture.

Brunch at the usual place with the usual suspects. Headed home and knock out after washing up.

Overall was ok I guess. At least my legs ain't aching now. And I did not have any cramps along the way.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

End of week 1

CCA day was yest. I went to the booth after my MA lesson. Collected my team shirt and stayed there till the end. Packing up seems all too easy for the effort put into setting up the place.

CCA day was ok? Considering that it was changed from Vivace to CCA Day. How boring can it get?

They spaced everyone out this year. After the congested unmovable concourse last year, they learnt their lesson. Last year I actually perspired in the concourse squeezing with the 238962933 people there. And there was literally no air conditioning la. All hot and stuffy.

So this year was a good improvement. However somehow I feel the atmosphere was a little low. There was no visible sign of excitement or anything. Ok this is a cca showcase, but still we will feel more enthu about it if you peeps are more enthu also. It is a 2 way exchange u know? Oh wells.

The dinner after that wasn't too bad. After a long day of cca-ing and with most of us skipping lunch and stuff, the buffet and pizza made our day.

Was kinda tired after I got home and I didn't even bother playing any games considering it is a Friday night.


Week 1 has ended.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

I'll be here.

I started a LiveJournal account. Just.

These 2 will co-exist, not to worry.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

For everthing in this world..

It is when the other party has absolutely no idea. That's right. And it is even worst when you cannot tell the other party.


More often than not you really want to find an outlet to get it off your chest. Perhaps sometimes your troubles are only so why your very own definitions, which is most of the case. Ok crap here.


But then these are what makes life unique. A set of possibilities that is unique to yourself. You know that no matter how similar, no one, I mean no one can lead the same life as you. And sometimes you just have to make do with the choices that you take, and the decisions that govern your future.


If you believe that luck exists,then wish me plenty of it. Else a prayer will suffice. :)



*it is so suffocating at time that you just want to let go.. let go of everything.. *




Oh its the 200th btw. If anyone realised..

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

It can only be..

There comes a time when people say that.... Don't worry I'm not singing We Are Singapore here.

When everything you do seems to be for something else. And so you thought you are the only one in this world.



On a side note, I finally committed myself to signing up for my Basic Open Water. Paid the deposit today and also signed up for Bay Escapade. Early term is to do all the nonsense thingys before the shagness come in. Gotta sign up for night bike for my freshies also.



Ok I think it is time to slp. Ciao

And so they say (Part 1)

this is what is going to happen to me... For more do check out facebook.

I am too lazy to paste the meanings of all the numbers here la..

Nites world...

Your Life Path Number is 7
Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.

The Life Path of a 7 is to find universal truths and pursue inner-knowledge. You will explore the mysteries of life and uncover the true meaning of existence. Much of your time will be spent alone, which you will welcome, because isolation will provide you with the time and quiet to pursue knowledge. As your wisdom grows, people will seek you out with the hope you will share your knowledge.

Your Life Destiny Number is 0
Your Destiny Number sheds light on those things you must accomplish in your life to be fulfilled.
Your Soul Number is 0
Your Soul Number describes your deepest desires and dreams and the person you truly want to be.
Your Personality Number is 0
Your Personality Number reveals the "external you"--the personality traits others will know you by.
Your Maturity Number is 7
Your Maturity Number reveals the person you will come to be--your true self.

A 7 Maturity Number marks a life lived following a path that is divergent from that of others. You will spend your life seeking the truth behind everything. In your later years you will continue to pursue knowledge of your inner-self and universal truths. People will seek you out for your knowledge.

The 4 Pinnacles
Pinnacles represent moments in your life in which you realize current goals and learn some of life's lessons. If you are at the beginning of a Pinnacle, then they can be used as a predictive tool to assist in managing your future. Your first Pinnacle begins at birth and last until around the age of 27. Your Second Pinnacle last through the next 9 year and the Third Pinnacle last for 9 years after the Second Pinnacle has passed. Your Fourth Pinnacle picks up where the Third Pinnacle ends and last throughout the rest of your life
Your First Pinnacle Number is 11

While an 11 Pinnacle will be traversed by most as a 2 Pinnacle, for those exploring metaphysical and spiritual issues this will be time of profound development. Those living life on the level of an 11 will find their intuitive powers are at their apex. This will be a time when you are called to inspire, lead and bring joy to those around you and possibly all of humankind.

Your Second Pinnacle Number is 9

A 9 Pinnacle means you are in a period where your love for your fellow man will be at its zenith. In this period you will play healer and inspirer to those around you. A 9 Pinnacle is never easy. You will be asked to sacrifice meeting your own needs for the good of others. You may experience the pain of loss, but in the end will be rewarded by fulfilling your soul's need to ease the pain of others.

Your Third Pinnacle Number is 2

You will learn how to have balanced relationships with others without sacrificing your inner self. Your talents for relating to others as well as helping others relate to each other will grow.

Your Fourth Pinnacle Number is 3

You are at a time in life where the door to self-expression is ready to open. This should be a very creative period for you during which you also develop strong friendships and learn to speak from your heart.

The 4 Challenges
Challenges denote personal weaknesses and temptations you will have to overcome and strengths you will have to develop to fully realize your goals. The 4 Challenges have the same time frame as the 4 Pinnacles.
Your First Challenge Number is 6

A 6 Challenge marks a period in which you will learn to balance the needs of your family with your own. You will learn that true nurturing can only come from your heart. Your idealistic views of marriage may be shaken some, but if you learn to temper them some you will be happier and more secure on the other side of this Challenge.

Your Second Challenge Number is 1

A 1 Challenge signifies the struggle to become independent, courageous and have faith in your convictions. If the number 1 appears as your first Challenge you are learning to define your self. Should a 1 appear in your other Challenges you are learning to remain true to your self and become more confident.

Your Third Challenge Number is 5

A 5 Challenge marks a time when you most overcome your fear of change and risk. You will also learn to liberate yourself from that which restricts your self-expression. While a 5 Challenge may be a bit scary, it is a time of great personal development marked by the growth of your individual freedom.

Your Fourth Challenge Number is 7

A 7 Challenge always marks a very serious period in your life. This period will be marked by intense introspection and the pursuit of spiritual wisdom. Your challenge will be to move through this period of self-discovery while dealing with the isolation such inner journeys often cause. Also you will have to learn to differentiate reality from fantasy.

The 3 Cycles
Cycles occur in 28 year periods. The First Cycle last from birth through your 28th year and is called your Formative or Seed Cycle. The Second Cycle--your Productive or Fruit Cycle--begins at age 29 and last through your 56th year. The Third Cycle, your Harvest Cycle, begins with the coming of your 57th year and last throughout the rest of your life. Your Cycle Numbers tell you the lessons you must learn and goals you must meet to stay on your Life's Path and achieve your true destiny.
Your First Cycle Number is 7

A 7 Cycle denotes a time of analysis and exploring life's deeper meanings. Your need to devote most of your intellectual energies to introspection may well stress your relationships with others, but they should survive. Your knowledge of life's meaning will increase dramatically. You may well be called upon to share your wisdom with others. If a 7 appears in your Third Cycle, this will be a time of quiet, spiritual development. People will seek you out for your wisdom.

Your Second Cycle is 4

This is a time for you to put things in order. You will address many of life's practical concerns during this period. Discipline, order and a willingness to work hard are your greatest allies during this Cycle.

Your Third Cycle Number is 5

Change and the development of personal freedom are the earmarks of a 5 Cycle. You will find fulfillment and joy in the adventures this Cycle holds for you. This Cycle will show you life at its most exciting.

Your Birthday Number is 4
This number is most influential between your 28th and 56th year. While it is not the most important number in your profile, it does have an effect on your Life's Path and Destiny.

You need stability and order to be happy. You are pragmatic and reliable, disciplined, honest and fair. You can be relied on to get any job done.

Your Personal Year Number is 2
This number tells you what is happening in your life this year. This number should be used to help you avoid setbacks and focus your energies on those areas of your life where you are most likely to achieve your goals.

This is a good year for you to collect yourself�put all of the pieces that make up your life into a cohesive, orderly structure. This is also a good time for you to take time for others, learn the value of compromise and foster harmony in your life as a whole.

Your Personal Month Number is 8
This number tells you what is happening in your life this month. Use this number in the same way you would your Personal year number, but apply it only to the current month.

This is a time for you to take things seriously and ensure all aspects of your life are moving in Make time to be alone and allow yourself to evaluate where your life is going.

Monday, August 20, 2007

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Less than 5 min after my previous nonsensical post, I am here writing this.

School starts today after a 4 month summer hiatus. Many things happened this 4 months.

Some good, others often bad. I shall not elaborate. For those of you who know, good. Else, too bad. Maybe you can try reading the archives. I might have left something there.

I don't have much to comment about these 4 months. At least not here on this blog. For those of you who might know, I am a very private person when it comes to certain things. For I am like a sponge which observes and absorbs all that is around me.

Lemme share something extra with you peeps after i got intrigued with after watching the movie The Number 23.


SevenDanny,
The Life Path of a 7 is to find universal truths and pursue inner knowledge. You will explore the mysteries of life and uncover the true meaning of existence. Much of your time will be spent alone, which you will welcome, because isolation will provide you with the time and quiet to pursue knowledge. As your wisdom grows, people will seek you out.


It is true to an extent. Then it got me thinking as usual. Is it true because it is really me? Or simply because I am trying to conform to this description that I felt it to be true? Wells, stupid Danny as usual. Thinking and analysing too much.

OK nvm. :P



I happened to chanced upon something just now.

After reading it, I realised that IT can never get back to what it used to be. We have drifted too much apart. And I am not sure if the day comes, will I be sad. We have become, I feel, a relationship that is really just..........................................................

I am disturbed. I cannot write anymore


I am not going to continue this post.



Sorry.

And so

And so, suddenly everything seems to happen like it did all over again.

All of these seem so familiar. And I don't mean the school work. What I am referring to is something else. Something closer to heart.

Whenever you feel that you are all alone in the night. When you think there is nothing more for you to care for.


Until... Some thing else comes along. Then you decide to give it a chance. A chance that is not without your doubts.

You longed for the opportunity for everything to change. The change that you have been otherwise waiting for all your life. It seems to be there. Just a little beyond your fingertips. All you have to do is to reach for it. It is just a little bit more.

But alas. It is always that bit that you can never reach. The tiny bit that is always separating you from your Eden. This is when your doubts set in. You begin to wonder if you what it takes. In this state of mind, any hesitation is magnified to a million times. Any distractions will result in you falling further away from it.

Till eventually you are back firmly onto the ground that you started from. And you wonder as usual, what you did to deserve this. This all too familiar torture that you are subjected to, time and time again. Why you ask, and no answer shall you receive yet again.

And then you will realise that it wasn't your time. You think that it never will be in the near future. Picking yourself up, dusting yourself, you drag your heavy feet across the sand. The vast empty desert that you have always been walking in. That same desert which you often wonder how long will it take you to reach the next oasis? The real oasis that is not a mirage which have deluded you so often.

And so you continue to walk, alone in the unforgiving cold of the night. Your only company is that of the crescent hanging in sky, that snigger, mocking your pathetic state.

But deep down you know. You know that you are not being punished. It is just you are not rewarded yet. Long your labour might be, you know the fruits of your success will taste sweeter than others. And your rewards will be justified. Hanging onto this belief, you continue..

For you know it has taken you this far. It won't let you fall just yet. It was, and it will always be so.

Friday, August 17, 2007

351 *edited*

130807 (Monday)

Spent half the day doing last min shopping in preparation for SMUX camp. Got home and packed my bags. Being me as usual, last min packing is always a norm. Ended up with many bags going to school to continue packing, since I was going to be late for the briefing. And I had to rush to get my papers~! %$%^#!@# Cab down to school and arrive at 2000H on the dot. Nice. Perfect for Wei Bin at least. BUT it only started at 2100H. Cos most ppl were late. Oh wells, nothing surprising since SMU activities never start on time. Esp SMUX's. WAHAHA

Ok so we did the decorations of the sporks that JJ got fir us as a gift to our freshies. Briefing covered everything that we should/have to/might need to know as GLs over the next 3 days. Ended around supper time and we headed for Rochor Beancurd for supper. Headed back school for sleepover and KO till the next morning. Damn freaking cold in school with the air conditioning.

140808 (Tuesday)

Come Tues, we drag our half awaken asses to breakfast and we saw freshies arriving already~! OMFG, the joke at that time was that the GLs are taking their time for breakfast and half prepared while the freshies are already geared up and ready to rock. WTF... ahahaa.. .

And so it was to the Admin building for the registration of attendance for camp. Had some ice breaking there whilst waiting for the opening address by James and Adrian. After that, it was lunch. Timing was a little tight though and the skies seem to set themselves against us. Dark clouds and drizzle was what that greeted us when we started out trekking segment. And no thanks to the huge mess inside choo choo trek. Being the 1st group, we took a little more time to get through the 'newly opened' trek and allowed the following groups to catch up with us. But it is ok since we made the trek a little easier for the rest. Snap a few shots as we were on the bridge. We made our way to Pandan for dinner. Collected our bike and rested for the night to come. Biking was overall ok. The traffic conditions were rather good for my group as we don't need to fall back into our contingency plans.

Arrive at JEC for ice skating. Perfect end to the hectic day. Everybody had great fun there in the air con. Camp site was West Coast Park again. Luckily it was dry when they were pitching. Helped the fellow sections which were cycling there to pitch also. Kaixiang stayed over at WCP and we talked cock all the night till 8am the next day. Actually it was fucking shag. But some how I managed to survive the next day.

150807 (Wednesday)

Waking up after some very little sleep for all, everybody was literally stoning while waiting for the bus to take us for the dive tryouts and underwater hockey. The day is damn hot la! Scorching sun. Sun block saved the girls from the burn, while the guys suffered for their garang-ness. Dive tryout was quite sucky imo. Jacky/ie is damn TU la. Trying his very best to crack some lame shit that is both time wasting and irritating. He thinks he is cool with those shit nonsense, but come the time when he realised he doesn't have enough time, that is where he got his act together and let his diving skills do the talking. OMFG, and I am glad he realised. Should have done it from the start la. Waste so much time. People come SMUX camp to try the stuffs la, not listen to your crap.

Underwater hockey was after lunch and Ix Shen was there. Damn blardy shag mans for 1st timers. Hahaa I told them it was worst than running a 5k. Finally they had a proper bath and I am sure all of them welcomed that. :) Waited for thebus to take us to Changi. Arriving there, it is tent pitching again! Woots! As there was some delay with the kayaking prog, they had to rush for the washing up. So we pitch more tents lo. :) A little pre-dinner game before the cooking itself. After that was the usual performance night. Some groups were damn hilarious mans! The night ended with supper at Changi Village and some trannies watching. Nothing spectacular though. Hammock up and it is sleeping time.

160807 (Thursday)

Last day of camp! Eeekkks.. Skating was the first event. It is a damn short thingy cos of some screw up with the vendors. And it rained as we were returning the skates. My heart goes out to all those helpers and org comm who was still keeping the skates in the rain while we took shelter at Water Venture. Of course, the rain and storm meant that we cannot start the kayaking segment. Almost had to cancel it and do rafting. When I saw the disappointment on some of their faces when the news was out, omg. Damn sad can. Ok so I think the prayers work as the skies cleared towards lunch. The freshies had a little theory lesson and break for lunch. We launch off shortly after lunch and since timing was tight, we did not proceed to Loyang. We paddled till somewhere around Hendon Jetty and u turned back. This double rammed into my right as i was talking to another double on the left. Shag. Lucky was slow, never capsize. Else is bye bye Canon.
Returning was much easier as it was with the current. Beached up and slack around in the water. Returned the kayaks and washed up a little. Changed into the camp shirt and waited for the finale. Of course, there is always time for a little food at Changi V. Wahahaa. Finale games started after the long briefing. The ZZZ monster took many prisoners during the briefing though. Nothing surprising la. Haha. Finale was alright la, and we did not win, thank you. All hell broke loose after that. I shall not go into details. Hahhaa..

Washed up a little and we headed to Xin Wang at Cine for dinner. My grp insisted on wearing the dirty camp shirt to town~! Hahaaa damn interesting la, this bunch. Not bad a session. Cab home and washed my clothes. Damn gross some of them. Bio hazard waste. Gave in to my bed at around 0230.

Headed down to school to pay my fees for the coming sem. Nothing much for this Friday.


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All in all, I thought this camp was rather ok. Expectations were met on many occasions, of course there were come instances where much could be improve.

Being a group leader is definitely different from being a participant. There are so much details that you gotta take note of. You have a responsibility towards them and your every decision might affect them a lot. It is our job to ensure they had an enjoyable time at camp. Afterall, that is the main takeaway for them, besides trying to get them interesting in SMUX. Being a freshie, there is nothing more shag than sleeping very little and enjoying all the activities~! :)

And during the psot camp dinner, I felt really great when many of them told me it was their best camp among all the camps they went. I must say first that I am very slow-to-warm person, not those ra-ra type that can instantly bring up the atmosphere. So I am really glad that they enjoyed the camp. I left the most of the interaction with the group to Yulin. Because I more or less know the expectations of the org comm, so I guess it is better if I handle them instead of Yulin. In a way, I feel I have neglected my group in some ways. Perhaps our relationship could have gone to a greater height. Perhaps, I won't know.

But initally, I did have my doubts about this group. The guys can be quite, how do I put it, themselves? Clicking together as 1 group while the girls another. I got quite disturbed sometimes, seeing the 2 distinct factions during the free time that they had. I mean, wouldn't it be strange if u see a group of ppl sitting in a circle, but the conversations are not going across to each other, rather it is only to the people by your side? And ultimately you realised that there are like 2 seperate groups sitting in to form 1 circle? I don't know mans. Perhaps the fault is in me.

Signing up as a GL, I did have my doubts about it. What if I had a difficult group? What if my group members are also like me? All the endless what ifs. I am really happy it turned out ok in the end.

And also, certain things that came across me was all too familiar. They have so many similarities between them that I found it very hard to ignore. But this time the odds are a lot higher. So much higher against. So much so that I am already quite negative about it already. I don't know much about it, but I am willing to find out. All of it seem so perfect. And most importantly it felt right. I have to tread carefully here, but I have absolutely no idea how to start. Someone please show me the light.

Last of all, I really hope some, if not all, of them can become good friends after this camp. Last year, I made some very good friends from SMUX camp. I will never forget the MOnday Dinner Gang that we had during our Term 1, before all the work consumed us for term 2. I was always looking forward to dinner every Monday. And even though Louis was a man with too few words as a GL, we had great fun..

But it was like one of the earlier camps last year, so I am not sure about it this year. But I really wish for that to happen. After all, I always feel that if you are willing to come for SMUX camp, there has to be certain attributes in you that you can click with the others coming for it. So all the best to you peeps of Group 1.



Photos to come later when I get back home.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Day 0

Sorry this place here seems pretty dead.

Team XUMS day was good! Kudos to the organising comm for the event. It was really interesting for all the places we went, things we ate and things we did.

Had a pre camp bike recce also.

Sat night was the Night Bike recce. Well, the route this year is more interesting than last year's. And not so shag I guess. This time, it is 87. Hahah. Inclusive of going and returning of course. :D

Met my freshies just now for the pre camp dinner. Wasn't too bad I guess for a first date. But I thought it could have been better. Perhaps their GLs were not doing their job. Oh wells, perhaps all these was a big mistake to begin with. We will see how it goes from here ba.

The feeling is all but too familiar and I hate it when this happens. Because the result is almost the same, the first time, every time. Wish me luck. No. Wait. I need more than that. I need a miracle.


Today is Day 0 before camp. I have not packed anything or gotten anything for the camp. A busy day with many errands to run. Sigh.. And schol starts next week.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Back and gone

The ride last night was enjoyable! Company was good and supper was awesome! Haha. Won't mind such rides more often. Kekek.. Another 80km. :)

Inter team event later in a few hours time. Looking forward to that also.


Oh ya, and I gotten all my night bike photos from last week. Will post soon. :)

Gotta hit the sack now. Nites.